1.2. My Insight

All for One and One for All

When I was told the news, I did not panic, I did not retreat, I did not cry, “Why me?” Normally, I tend to have a somewhat hysterical reaction to the unexpected. Renée, my wife, says it's a startle reflex, a thing babies do and is usually outgrown over time. Renée’s convinced that particular learning phase is only one of the many stages of my development I jumped over without integrating it into my personality. Arrested development is a rather apt term.

So normally with bad news, my first reaction is negative and my wires short circuit. When I got the news of the tumor in my bone, not only was I not negative (using 3 negatives in 6 words) I was high. By high, I mean a light, contented feeling within me. All of a sudden a whole new set of synapses were taking the “bad” news and directing it to a different part of the brain.

It was an epiphany: I'd been worrying if and when the sword would fall. No, I was not on the road to Damascus. And I didn't go blind. In fact, it was the opposite: I no longer had to wait or worry if the cancer would spread and metastasize. It had!

That opened the door to a series of endless possibilities.


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